I made myself smaller for someone else

I made myself smaller for someone else

A sweet lady in front of me. Very conscious. Very sensitive. ⁠ Earlier that morning we talked about her reintegration journey, after a period of being ill. We discussed how she makes choices because she still has little energy. And how she quickly falls back into that...
“𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜”

“𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜”

It’s 2021 and I’m giving my first silent retreats. I put lunch on the table. And I immediately notice the first stories in my head. 𝘐𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘱 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘮 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩? 𝘋𝘪𝘥 𝘐 𝘱𝘶𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘴𝘢𝘭𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘵? 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵? I realize that I am insecure about the...